Question me why dont ya?

*clearing my head* Kimmy said I hadda so I'm gonna, hopefully I can answer without overthinking....lol

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1: Heather 2: Hesha (neice calls me this) 3: hmmm? Can't think of one...got called hot stuff the other day that count?

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1: junglecat 2: bloomer 3: jingle (LCers remember those holiday screen names?)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1: My hair 2: My eyes 3: My smile

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
1: My gut 2: My *lack of* booty 3: Dents in my shoulders where the boulder holders rest

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1: English /Welsh 2: German 3: French

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1: Giving up control and completely trusting someone
2: Not being able to help someone in trouble (recently had a domestic dispute across the way from where I live)
3: *I'm thinking too hard already* rats scare me...nasty, yucky, germy things

THREE OF YOUR EVERDAY ESSENTIALS
1: Brush my teeth 2: atleast one coke for some caffine 3: positive attitude

THREE THINGS YOU'RE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1: 3? Tshirt 2: blanket 3: Yeah what Kim said and a smile

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1: RRESPECT 2: TRUST & HONESTY 3: FUN!!!

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order)
1: I care what others think.
2: I want to know all the answers
3: I want to please others too much.

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1: Attitude 2: Face- espcially the eyes & jaw line 3: a yummy chest

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES good question...thinking I skipped this the first time intentionally...I have to have 3 ?
1: sex 2: gardening my nonexistant garden (let's call this a future hobby) 3: talking (and sex)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1: that yummy chest under my hand....
2: my headache to go away
3: *censored*

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING
1: Teaching 2: Project Management 3: Mistress...lol

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1: Deep south - Georgia grins 2: cruise 3: Europe

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE
1: Lauren 2: Meagan 3: Austin

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1: be content 2: *censor* 3: sit at home knowing my family (dream family) is all well and doing fine

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A DUDE
1: I'm laid back 2: perfer action or suspense movies 3: damn I dunno a third dudism

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1: I whine when I don't get my way (in a relationship)
2: I'm nosey
3: I hate, absolutely hate, taking the trash out...is that sterotypical girl? lol or jsut everyone

THREE CELEB CRUSHES
Shit I dont know names 1: Brad pitt 2: Vin Diesel 3: Richard Gere

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1: Y 2: Obi if he's still reading this 3: and you!

Family limitiations...

I haven't posted anything here in a few days. I think I'm bored. I seem to be able to log on, respond to someone else's creative thoughts. But come up with my own original thoughts? Sounds difficult. Last week, a couple of things wound me up...(dumb family) but, well who wants to hear how dumb family members can be? They say you can pick your friends (i've picked some winners) but you can't pick your family. Hell aint that the truth? Frustrating as all fuck!

Well this may infact end up in a grip session lord help us if I get started. In breif, last week the "family vacation" topic came up. Ya see last year my dad asked my sister her family including the fucktard fo a husband she has and myself to go on a "family vacation". I thought it would be a streatch for me, and it was, but it might be something worth doing in the long run. We went to the Texas coast, a 6 or 7 hour drive, spent 3 or 4 nights in a beach house. I survived. My dad and I ended up doing all the cleaning and all the cooking for ourselves, my sister, her idiot, the 12 yr neice, her friend, and the 1 yr neice. Let's say it was trying.

Guess what...they wanna repeat! WTF? They , the idiot bro-in-law and my dad, did all the planning...the dates kept changing...and last week they wanted me to commit. Guess what...Heather didn't. My dad called me after having talked to my sister and her husband seperated that day....wanting to know am i going? *it's April and they want me to commit to hell in August* My response to dad..." to be honest, at the moment I have a hard time spending more than an hour in my sisters presence, so no I am not commiting at the moment".

In my dream world, my dad acted concerned....tried to negotiate a workable solution. NOT. While I said this, a phone rang in the background, he says to me" ok then, just blame it on work. I gotta go get the phone. " I had full intentions of trying to come to something workable, we could drive less distance. This year they've planned on driving 8 plus hours. In one vehicle....

Later in the week, I did see my dad, and he did say maybe things would change between now and then. I also said that perhaps 2 vehicles would be another help. Of course, he was concerned about money. My comment to him was that me, sister, the idiot, him, a 2 year old, 13 year old and friend in one vehicle wasnt appealling. and that cost vs life time relationship did way in.

At present I am not going, and well I'm happy about it. I'm an adult, my vacation time is well earned and I'd like to enjoy and relax. Family time is good....but I'm thinking a weekend family trip can be a good thing...a family feasco is another thing.

They have yet to realize I'm an adult, who doesnt just follow. I'm giong to make decisions with myself in mind. Not to sound selfish, I'm just no longer a push over.

A regular schedule is Heather's best friend

Now that I'm having a hard time adjusting to the time change I find tips for adjusting...arg...it's too late to plan ahead....I'm tired I tell ya tired. It's not that ONE lost hour of sleep....since I'm messed up...I can't go to sleep at all...a regular schedule is Heather's best friend...it's helps me be nice...Would you beleive I'm in bed by 11pm every night, some nights earlier? Well it was like that before, but now that I have something to blame...I can't go to sleep at night...last night I was laying in bed awake at 2am wishing for sleep...beggin the unknown bed gods for sleep...And this morning....I needed assistance prying my ass outa bed...

Well now...this evening I found my excuse documented...and tips for adjusting...too damn bad I found it too late for this year....think I can remember this shit for next year?


Parkridge Offers Sleeping Tips At Time Change posted April 1, 2005

With the April 3rd time change quicklyapproaching, many people are looking forward to longer daylight hours toenjoy the summer sunshine. But daylight saving time also brings something not as pleasant to look forward to - a disruption in sleep patterns for many Americans.As many as 70 million people in the U.S. suffer from sleep disordersand wakefulness, and "springing forward" only compounds the problem. That's why Parkridge East is promoting National Sleep Awareness Week, March 28-April 3, to raise awareness about the benefits of adequate sleep and the serious health and safety consequences of sleep disturbances and disorders, officials said."Losing an hour of sleep because of the change to daylight savingtime affects all of us to a certain degree, and for some, adjusting to thetime change is a serious issue," said Kent Bankhead, director of Parkridge East's Sleep Center. "Last year, a New England Journal of Medicine article by Canadian psychologist Stanley Coren warned that traffic records show a jump in accidents the Monday after people move their clocks ahead. People are so sleep deprived these days that losing even one hour can make us more clumsy and dangerous on the roads."Bankhead says sleep may seem like inactivity, but it's vital for thebody and brain to rest, revitalize and download. Memory, mood reaction time and alertness are diminished with sleep deprivation, and recent research has also found that metabolism and endocrine functions are dramatically affected as well."Temporary sleep problems due to the time change are one thing, butchronic sleep problems require treatment," said Bankhead. "That's where the sleep center comes in. By monitoring our patients' sleep difficulties, we can suggest adjustments to help them resume a healthy sleep pattern. We often have patients who have been searching for a solution to their sleep problems for years. When they come here they say, 'Why didn't someone point this out to me before?'"To ease the transition to daylight saving time, Bankhead suggeststhe following tips:* Plan to get at least eight hours of sleep on Saturday night - or more if you already feel tired.* Go to bed a half hour earlier than your normal weekday bedtime on Saturday night and sleep at least a half hour later on Sunday morning.* If you need more sleep on Sunday, take a nap in the middle of the afternoon. But don't sleep later than 4 p.m. or you could disrupt your nighttime sleep.* Don't consume caffeinated beverages or food after the morning and avoid eating a heavy meal or drinking alcohol too close to bedtime.* Make sure to go to bed early enough on Sunday night to get at least eight hours of sleep.Staffed with physicians and technologists who specialize in sleepmedicine, Parkridge East studies and treated 600 patients last year to helpthem reclaim a good night's sleep, officials said . The Center diagnoses and treats adults, adolescents, and children with sleep disorders including insomnia, snoring, sleep apnea, narcolepsy and others.

Sex talk 2: Spring & Sex

What is it about this time of year? I'm convienced we humans are just like all the other animals. Mating time is here...and they're all coming out of the wood work. Apparently, I must not of burned any bridges in the past, cause I swear everyone and anyone I've had sex with in the past is callin'. All but the ex-husband- but he knows better!

Easter weekend "the guy that got (moved) away" called. He'd be driving through town on his way home to visit parents for the holiday. Grins. He bascially wanted to know if I was open for a visit...lol...or if I was serious with someone. Me? Well since I'd been on the outs for the past 2 previous weeks with the current "boyfriend"? I told him he was welcome to call while driving through...just don't call 20 minutes before I have to leave for work like last time. (The quisi-boyfriend is back...grins tell ya about him next time.)

I noticed on caller ID I got a call from another former, who from time to time calls...just for sex. Glad I didn't answer...I didn't wanna tell him no. Don't wanna burn that bridge for next time...lol

OK...there are guys that I dont fuck,but have done the phone thing with...that call horny too. I haven't talked to them in ages either...but like I said Sring is here. I talked to the long term phone sex guy from NJ...omg his voice. The Chicago guy from Paltalk...now that he's single I keep inviting him to visit...no luck as of yet. And of course, (Kim you know this guy) the guy that umm "helped" me through the divorce called too this week outa the blue.

And then there are the 2 guys I've been jugglin of late...the fuck buddy & the quisi-boyfriend.

Boobs-a-floppin'

How's this topic for hitting reality? I was reading someone's blog and well my bra was bothering me...so that's it...off with the shirt, off with the bra. FREEDOM!

I continued to read, then needed a boob adjustment, so without thinking I adjusted things.... Next thing I know the screen is scrolling down like a i dunno what.... I'm thinking is the mouse stuck or something I'm moving it ...as the screen continues to scroll down. Well fuck....the damn boob flopped on the space bar ...

Online friends? I know if you're reading this you understand, but there are alot of people in my life that just don't "get it". They can't comprehend how you can develop a friendship online. The "they" I'm refering to is a group of coworkers. Some of them are just simply amazed and some jealous of the closeness/friendship I speak of when talking about my online friends.

This past week I was tellin' my lunch buddies I've FINALLY got into bloggin'. Of course, I had to explain the entire concept to them. I explained that this was not "live" but rather a posting you get to at your convenience.

I've missed my "vp" group and I'm very happy this is allowing me to get back in touch with such a wonderful errrr diverse errr interesting group of people. I wouldn't trade my relationships with any of you for anything. Weird huh? Weather or not I'm in touch, I keep ya'll in my thoughts. You provide me smiles many a gloomy day...

Yannno they talk about that unconditional aspect of friendship, and I've found it with you. Cause well, if you don't wanna talk to me it's a matter of clicking the window shut. No reason to respond otherwise.

You know who you are...love ya!

Questions of life...

Where am i going? what the hell am i doing? what do I want to do?

These are the questions that I've struggled with the last few years. I think I'm making some head way.

Atleast I no longer ask myself Who am I?

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TGIF!!!! It's April fools day, haven't thought about doing any *special*, but I'm startin' to think now. Watch out!

Sex talk 1

Well I've figured out it's those hot sexy pictures that Y posts not the radio pics that get all the attention. I don't know If I'll ever compete with Firestart productions. But, well it just wouldn't be me if I didn't blab about sex from time to time. ~grins~

So what about sex do I wanna talk about now? Hmm yanno sex smells fuckin' awesome. I love the smell of sex....makes me horny. Ok hornier, by the time I'm smellin' sex I've already had sex and I'm already wound up. To be more specific I've been wound, unwound, rewound, and unwound and so on...

More sex talk to come....

Resolutions?!?!?

setting this up I've been reading through others blogs and damn...it's made me think.

Kim was talking about where she was success-wise on her 2005 resolutions. I'm thinking it's March...3 months into the year...plenty of time to finish 'em resolutions. PLENTY. Now if I can just remember what they were this year. I was kinda foggy this past January.

I think one had to do with finish getting out of debt. It's been a goal...a fuckin' forever goal. Guess what end of last year I wheeled and dealed, read a book on negotiation with collectors, asked advice from Dad. (not something I like doing) and made a plan. A plan that included Dad's help. But here's the short version... of the debt the ex left me with totaling approx. $10,000 (yes he says he'll pay me....one day). Basically I negotiated them down 50% and borrowed the rest from Dad. I paid one off jsut before the end of the year, the rest just after. The forgivin debt is for tax purposes is in 2 different years! Anyways....what dad lent me in December was forgivin as a "christmas present". Yippee'kay'yeah ! I'd feel guilty if I didnt know my sisters gotten god only knows how much form my dad. Anyways....in Jan/Feb he gave me more to close out the rest. I'm saying to him ok this is my payment plan for paying you back...and he says jsut pay yourself in a savings account. I felt uncomfortable...but that was way outweighted by the sense of releif...I'm out of debt!!

My car will be paid off this summer....and well it's time for another...but maybe Ill go a month or two with no official "debt " on the books??? what a thought! Wouldn't be american to be debt-free very long.

Now what were the other resolutions? Think another was to get back into school and work towards that degree. I've had no real action on this one other than checking the summer schedule..nothing is being offered that will work for me this summer. Looks like September's my next best option.

What else...make healthy choices. I've revised this from previous years. It's no longer lose X many pounds...its make healthy choices. Kinda makes it a daily decision that covers losing weight, exercising, etc.... Well its march and I think I've made a few healthy decisions..let's hope continue... hmm does using condoms count? that's healthy right? no STDs and well sex helps my mental health!

Movie Review....The Pacifier

I liked it! It's not necessarily my type of movie...I like suspense/mystery/sex...lol The pacifier is a definate family movie, but one that didn't put me to sleep. Amazing! Ok now for the honestity...omg Vin Diesel makes me cream my panties. I wouldn't care what he was doing...I'm gonna watch him. The down side of the movie is...I'm not seeing enough of that skin. Only one scene we see him in a towel...damn gimme some of that. O the dreams that night...yum

side note...did you notice my blog title is a link to the movie site? Hmm, now why did I do that? Because I can and Y can't...ha ha ha